I haven’t blogged in awhile so here’s a little life update. I’m 20 weeks pregnant today! We have met the halfway mark as they like to say. Pregnancy for me as been “easy” in a sense or as easy as pregnancy can really be. I think it’s hard regardless if you’re having an easy pregnancy or not because you’re still going through a ton of changes that are all new and sometimes hard to cope with.
One of the absolute hardest parts of it for me has been coping with my changing body. I have always been one to workout to some extent since I was in high school and I developed a strong exercise habit about 6 years ago. I’ve always strived for perfection and worked really hard to meet my goals and I always met them. It has been a HUGE mental struggle for me to look at myself and see my body growing and changing and having to be ok with it because it’s what happens when you’re bringing a life into the world. And don’t get me wrong, I wouldn’t change that for the world. I love the fact that I’m pregnant. But that doesn’t change the fact that the mental struggle is real for me and coping with my changing body has been hard. Sometimes I feel bad for feeling that way and I feel like I’m supposed to love my pregnant body. Somedays I do but in the back of my mind I always wish I was back to my pre pregnancy body. Which will happen, sometimes it’s just hard reminding myself of that.
I have been lucky enough to have stayed pretty small so far. I’m only up 8 pounds, steadily gaining a pound a week in the second trimester like you’re supposed to. I’ve stayed very active in hopes to keep my weight gain minimal and in the healthy range. Being able to keep working out has kept me somewhat sane and feeling like my normal self, so hopefully that doesn’t change.
Tomorrow we find out the gender! We are both so excited to see the baby again and to make sure it’s a healthy little bean. As for gender guesses I have no idea. In the beginning I was calling it a girl unintentionally but then weeks later I had a feeling it was a boy and just a week ago I had a dream it was a girl and have been thinking girl since. So it’s been very back an fourth. We both just hope it’s healthy and aren’t rooting for one or the other. I get excited when I think about having a boy or a girl and I cannot wait until tomorrow!
Baby has been moving a lot more too. Over the last few days movement has really picked up. I feel little jabs and rolls throughout the day now. I even placed my fingers on my tummy the other day and felt it jab them. It scared me! haha
There are so many things to look forward to and I am beyond happy with life right now.
Thanks for reading 🙂