(I wrote this last Friday)
Something I’ve noticed today…
I haven’t been feeling like working out lately. I did 3 workouts this week, which is great, but not my normal 5/6 workouts I normally do a week.
Anyway, so today I didn’t do my workout. I was just kind of chasing Olivia around all morning and doing things here and there that I wanted to get done. Since I haven’t been feeling motivated to workout, I’ve also been getting down on myself. Thinking things like, “I’m not good enough”, “I’m not skinny enough”, “I’m not fit enough”, etc. Horrible, horrible thoughts that I’ve been trying to get away from for years. Some days I do great, others not so much.
So then it got me thinking. I was having these exact thoughts when I was 20 pounds heavier, just beginning my journey to lose my pregnancy weight. I remember thinking then, that if I could just lose this weight I’d love myself more, and be happier, etc. Well guess what…I’m still having those thoughts and feelings even after I lost the weight. Who woulda thought…
Moral of this story. Love yourself. Accept yourself. No matter what stage of life you’re in, no matter what season you’re going through. Accept yourself for who you are RIGHT NOW. Not who you may be tomorrow or in a few months, or in a year. Now! Because until you’re able to do that, you’ll never be truly happy with you.
I feel great, and I look great, but it’s never good enough because I fail to accept who I am. Some days I feel like I’m totally killing it, love who I am, and feel unstoppable. This week I’m noticing a little more negativity toward myself. Times like that I like to reflect on how far I’ve come, the hard work I’ve put in, lessons I’ve learned, how much I’ve grown.
Today I’m going to make a point to accept myself and not allow the negative thoughts to consume my mind. I’m really hoping to make big strides in this area of my life. I know I’ll get there because I can already feel a shift happening.
Thanks for reading!