I did a little meditation to open up my heart chakra last week. One of the recent chapters in the book I’m reading, The Untethered Soul, was about being aware when we close off from certain things or situations. I started doing an exercise, trying to be aware of when I’d close my heart off from any given situation. And let me tell you, it’s quite often. I especially do it in social settings. Which I feel has a lot to do with the social anxiety I have at times.
I really realized it today. I went to a new yoga studio in town. I went by myself, which honestly is huge for me. Going places by myself is getting much easier though, before I’d never even consider it. So I was at this yoga studio, didn’t know anyone. We did our yoga and meditation, loved it btw. Afterward I had a reiki session scheduled, but I had around 40 min to kill. I wanted to look around at the items for sale in the boutique area, so I did that. There was also a potluck afterward, so I grabbed some food. There were some tables set up, with people sitting at those. I opted to sit in a lone chair by the area you would checkout/sign up for classes, etc. There were some people in that area for awhile, but eventually it was just me. It really made me realize how closed off I am. There were all these groups of people connecting with each other, and there I was, alone. I went there to connect, and I was isolating myself. So I decided to sit with a group of 3 women. I’m really glad I made myself get up and do that. It’s hard to open up your heart when you’ve allowed it to close off for so long. Not saying it’s always closed off, but when it comes to social settings I think I close it more than I let it stay open.
So my focus right now is to stay centered, be aware, and allow my heart to stay open to let energy flow in and out. I’m also trying to remain aware of any situation or feelings that arise and cause my heart to close off. That’s when I need to allow it to stay open and let that bad energy free, which will let good energy in.
All of this may sound like a bunch of hippy dippy bs, but I’m telling you it works. I’ve never been one to meditate a lot but I’ve noticed so many positive changes since I’ve started. There’s gotta be something to it, considering it’s been around for some 5,000 years, right. When I meditate it’s only for 8 to 10 minutes at a time, and it’s had such a positive impact on my life. I personally, watch youtube videos by Aaron Doughty. He has some good meditation videos on his channel.
I’m still learning who I am, and who I am yet to become. Slowly but surely I’m opening up more and more, loving more and more. In the end love is what matters most. “Let all that you do be done in love.”